The inner workings of a complicated mind.

What can I say I get bored

Thu, 22 Dec 2005 23:45:38 GMT

Name: Kat
Birthdate: August 20
Birthplace: Maryland
Current Location: Maryland
Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: brown
Height: 5'5"
Weight: 105 llbs
What's Your....
Zodiac Sign: Leo
Ethnicity: Irish and greek
Body Type: skinny/athletic
Favorite Food: I don't know, apple pie or cheesecake
Favorite Drink: im not sure
Baseball Team: ewww baseball (Yankees)
(when) Bedtime: None
Favorite Color(s): blue, red, black
Favorite Letter: o
Favorite Number: 13 (my softball number)
Candy: atomic fireballs
Favorite Animal: panthers
Favorite Messenger: AIM
Screename: usuallybored89
Favorite Store: dont go shopping that much
Most Missed Memory: a time long ago
Best Physical Feature: My stomach
Overused Phrase: shit
First Thought Waking Up: fuck
Goal for this year: get a job
Weakness: if I told you it could be used against me
Fears: not sure
Heritage: irish, greek
Longest Relationship: emily
School's Name: Magruder
Favorite TV Show: law and order svu
Have You Ever....
Drank: no
Smoked: Used to
Dyed Your Hair: yep...doing it again soon
Shoplifted: nope
Tried To Do The Splits: yep
Tried To Do A Backbend: tried? i have, not anymore tho
Tried To Do A Cartwheel: Yep
Tried To Do A Handstand: Yeah
Tried To Act Perfect: fuck no
Get A Detention Of Any Kind From Not Doin Anything: yes
Skinny Dipped: No
Had Sex: no
Kissed/Huged An Opposite Sex: yes
Kissed/Huged The Same Sex As You: yes
Been Dumped: Yeah
Done Drugs: Yeah
Had A Boyfriend/Girlfriend: yep
Ate Sushi: no
Loved Someone: Yes, in a friendly way
In A Guy/Gurl....
Fav Eye Color: grren
Fav Hair Color: Dont care
Short or Long Hair: Depends on the person
Height: about as tall as me
Weight: athletic build
Looks Or Personality: Personality
Love or Money: Love
Hot Or Cute: both
Drugs and/or Alcohol: no
Muscular or Really Skinny: athletic build
Sexy or Shmexy: sexy.
Random...: moose
How Do You Want To Die?: I dont plan it
What country do you want to Visit: ireland
Been to the Mall Lately: not in a while
Do you like Thunderstorms: love them
Shower Daily: yep
Do you Sing: i try to spare your ears
Want to go to College: cant wait
Current...
Clothes: boxers and a t-shirt
Shoes: none
Make-Up: eyeliner occasionally
Hair Do: ponytail or a bun
Phone: Cell samsung that everyone has
Location: living room
Weather: Cold

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 02:08:19 GMT

Without a doubt: you are a 20% Gay Guy! OR a 51% Gay Gal!

you also scored 73% straight guy and 41% straight girl points

Your gayness and straightness amounts are above for you to be proud of!

Don't be afraid to have a little of what you didn't expect in there, it is virtually impossible to get zero in any of the categories! After all, we all have our little quirks don't we? Even if we're not always aware of what they say about us.

Important notes:

--> The first 20% or so in each group is fairly insignificant. You would have to exceed this to show any noticable outward signs of a belonging to that group.
--> The higher your score in a particular catergory, the more obvious to the rest of the world it is that you are that way.
--> Having gay points doesn't cancel straight points. Having straight points doesn't cancel gay points. If you have a lot of both you are probably bisexual.
--> If you scored very low in all categories you probably answered the way you thought you should, rather than truthfully. Try again and be honest!
--> Obviously you can ignore the points you scored that aren't for your gender, unless perhaps you are trans-gender.

I hope you enjoyed taking the test and perhaps learned a little about yourself. If the results aren't what you expected, perhaps you should ask your friends what they first thought of you.

Ride free!

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 6% on Gay guy

You scored higher than 93% on Gay girl

You scored higher than 92% on Straight guy

You scored higher than 3% on Straight girl

Link: The NEW Are You Gay? Test written by cactuscake on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

Tue, 06 Dec 2005 02:01:59 GMT

Sunset Glory

Would you stop and watch a sunset with me?
Take several minutes out of your busy schedule,
And let me hold you in my arms,
As we watch the gold and magenta fill the sky.
Let me whisper in your ear,
Take your hand,
Or kiss your neck.
Would you have time for me and the sunset?

I was in a writing mood today.

This weekend

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 01:37:12 GMT

I went down to Myrtle Beach this weekend for a softball tournament. It didn't go well. I'm nervous about going to school tomorrow. I'm afraid I'm going to hear something that I don't want to.

Im intrested to see what people say.

Fri, 11 Nov 2005 00:06:16 GMT

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want- good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 02:38:13 GMT

Things are not good

Tue, 01 Nov 2005 17:29:47 GMT

My life is rated R.
What is your life rated?

You're an Expert Kisser

You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity
You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off
And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave
When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

Your Monster Profile

Basilisk Nightmare

You Feast On: Snow Cones

You Lurk Around In: Nude Beaches

You Especially Like to Torment: Hicks

What's Your Monster Name?

Last Night

Tue, 01 Nov 2005 17:09:30 GMT

So last night was awesome. First I had to go pick up Eric, then we went to the mall and I got a mood ring for Emily because the one she had was too small and she couldnt get it off her finger. Then we went trick or treating at Lisa's house and some guy came around and was like "Lisa. This is for you *blows on his sax*" That was weird. Then I came home and made a fire and Emily came over, and we hung out. It was amazing. Nothing could have been more perfect. And then Dan and Eric came over and we were all hanging out. It was just a great night.

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 14:19:31 GMT

Eli, I want to thank you for having your party, it was awesome. For many reasons. :)

Wed, 26 Oct 2005 23:56:22 GMT

well Raider team practice was disappointing. We didn't do any running. :( And I really need to get back in shape. I need to run the mile in under 7 minute, do 50 push-ups in a minute, and get at least 60 sit-ups in a minute. I've got a lot of work to do. And thanks to Greg for working out with me today. I'm gonna need a lot of pushing from you. I'm thinking I should run a mile three days a week during lunch and then work out 1 or 2 days during lunch, and then go to Greg's and work out there on the weekends. I think that might work. Wait....I'll have practice two days a week and we usually run a mile then. So I can work out those days and run on the others. Yes! I've figured out my schedule. Sweet. Now its off to do the homework that I never do.

Wed, 26 Oct 2005 00:30:01 GMT

So I'm glad things are settled and figured out and everything. Im glad Im not going to lose a friend. And on another not I wrote a poem for her. I'm going to give it to her tomorrow and see what happens. Thanks Eric for listenning to all my ideas.

Big Mess

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 19:22:15 GMT

What have I gotten myself into? I feel like it's mostly my fault, even though it's a two way street. But even so, I don't know what to do.

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 04:20:37 GMT

OMFG!!! Tonight was amazing! I love you guys! ;)

Sat, 22 Oct 2005 19:32:39 GMT

Well well. This weekend so far has been a blast. Starting with Thursday night. Hehe. Who knew Twister could be so much fun. Then yesterday Dan and Eric came over and we hung out. It's always raining when we hang out too. Hmmm. I dunno. We went in the hot tub, watched Clueless, and played suck and blow. We are getting pretty good at it too. Maybe I should tryout for battle of the classes next year. Cause our team didnt do so well on that. :\ Tonights gonna be fun too. ;)

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 23:53:44 GMT

*Sigh* Today was fun. More specifically lunch. But maybe Stephanie's boobs didnt have as much fun. Hehe. I don't think she'll be eating any Goldfish anytime soon. Yea, that was fun. And we are planning our trip tp DC this weekend. Woot! That's going to be fun.

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 02:00:45 GMT

Last night was fun. Lisa, Laura, and Matt came over. Eric came over too but then he had to leave for work. Boo. But it was still fun. We hung out and watched The Life of Brian or something. It was pretty funny. But I spent about 5 hours washing cars today. Fundraiser for softball, and actually it wasn't that bad. Tomorrow I have a double-header, and after that I dont know what.

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 16:20:40 GMT

Im so stressed out right now. I have three papers due tomorrow and I cant find the rubric thing where it says everything that you need in the paper. Or one of the artivcles that one is on. I've looked everywhere I thought it could be, but I still cant find it. That on top of I had a really good dream last night but it made me depressed. It made me want someone. Someone to hold, someone to tell they're beautiful. *sigh*

Writers block sucks.

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 00:19:56 GMT

I'm just having one of those days where it seems like everything just won't ever get better again. Nothing even started it, it just happened. Like everything thats bad in my life decided to dog pile on me today on top of having an english paper due tomorrow. And I don't think it helps that I never try and solve my problems, I just try to ignore them 'till they go away. But most of my problems have to do with my parents and I can't really do anything to solve them but if they keep putting me in the middle like they are I don't know how much longer I can take it. I just want it all to go away. If they really loved me they wouldnt be putting me through this.

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 01:00:21 GMT

I love softball. What a way to get your mind of all the shitty things going on. And on the topic of softball I really want to get a RocketTech bat. $200 But worth it if I'm going to play varsity this year. Even if I dont make I can use it for my Champoins games. Yea. I only have about $160 right now. I dont know how Im going to get the other $40 though. Oh well. Ill figure it out.

Sat, 24 Sep 2005 15:47:15 GMT

I know I've said it before. But I'm sayig it again. I'm lonely. :( I want someone to please, and share thingsd with. Like a sunset. Have you ever watched one of those? Or the night sky? Seeing all those stars in that vast open space makes you feel so miniscule that you want to make your life worthwhile. Live every day likes it the last. I want someone to share that stuff with.

Fri, 23 Sep 2005 23:10:46 GMT

Its Friday night and Im so bored. And I have my lisence but theres no one to go out with. So Im sitting here so bored. Maybe Ill go rent a movie. But i already took my sister to get one and it was one we had already seen. Grrr. I WANNA GO OUT. But more specifically I want someone to go out with. :(

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 00:12:57 GMT

I havent updated in a while. I've been too busy. I had a softball game today. Double header. We won both games. Ms. Wilson came. Talk about weird. But it was nice of her to come. I had a nice bunt. And I scored the winning run in the second game. It was awesome. I think I might get a rocket tech bat. They're so nice. I'm gonna try Robin's out during practice on wensday. If I really like it I'm gonna buy it. $175. Yep. But they are soo worth it. Oh yea. I (hopefully) get my lisence on wensday.

I have no life

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 02:46:52 GMT

Two nights in a row I have spent sitting on the couch watching tv. I have no life. I cant wait 'til i can drive. Then I can take myself to where ever.

Fri, 09 Sep 2005 20:04:49 GMT

I havent updated in a while. So I might as well now. Well I've been sick the last few days. It sucks. But I'm finally getting better. Man last night I just wanted to be anywhere but here and be anyone but me. I just wanted to get lost in something. I was tempted to drink. I didnt. Yay. But that feeling sucks. I hate it. And it's been happenning a lot lately. I really need to do something about it.

But me and David finally figured our whole situation out. We are not going out. Because that relationship finally proved to me that I really am a lesbian. And I'm kinda mad that people keep asking me how I know because I've never been with a girl. Well people, because I know. I dont find guys attractive at all. Girls are just really appealing to me. And I want to be with a girl. Not a guy. Does that answer it for you? Yep. So thats that I guess. There's not really anything else new. Which is kind of sad. I want something good to happen. I want to meet someone. (ok so I want to meet a girl) Can you blame me?

sigh

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 22:55:29 GMT

Black hole.
Whirling and thrashing inside me,
Slowly sucking me into nothingness.

Scream
For someone to helpm
But there's no one there.

Gone,
Soon I will be,
If there's no one to rescue me.

This doesn't describe exactly how I feel right now, but it's pretty damn close. I don't know. I just came home today and felt like shit. Ok it wasn't just today but the emotions weren't so strong. And I just want to scream at people but I can't. Just hold it in. How long 'till I burst? A day? A month? A year? It's been several already. Fuck. I really want a cigarette.